I'm leaving the giant 2-0 in a jiffy. And primary, secondary, ite phases are so milestones away from me rite now. Today, reality bit me real hard when i stumbled across couple of familiar faces of old bunch on Facebook. (What a bitch!) The ones, who used to "scratch my back and i scratched theirs." It's suddenly melancholy thinking how many friends i had lost in these long years. And when i looked at them, flashbacks of good and (less than perfect but always forgiven) memories seemed to reach me back by the head. I suddenly realised what happened to us back then when we were first realised we're all gonna face the real deal: separation. Don't we all try to play around with fate and make things work? If i had my way back then, i would have made a pact wif them that we all always stay together forever.
But we were all doing what we had to do; to move on. It's human nature, we did. And along the way, some things had to be released to give way for the new ones. Even though at first it seems interesting to change, but after awhile, as you get older and wiser, u seems to pine for the old treasures that once belong to you. I may fail to keep in contact with some of my friends but they wld nvr ever be less important in my life if they were still with me right now. If not, they're nvr actually forgotten, you see.
We will always be you know, friends.
"So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trail For what it's worth, it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right I hope you had the time of your life." -Green Day
ps:we only part to meet again... '&edited some previous posts.
Far too long in Paradise.
Date / Time : Sunday, December 28, 2008 / 5:18 PM
And when i thought that yesterday's glory would nvr black out my sunday, i woke up late having toasted cheese for lunch and got one hell of a free scream. I'm still very much shaken by the whole thing ok? I wept hard like a tap too overload with water. I wasn't prepared for something like this to happen. It had been pretty darn long ever since we accidentally fall into this path. And i felt like my far-too-heavy-heart's gonna drop on the floor (which cld make me 'heartless', ooooh, just rub in, why dun i!) I was just sadly, vulnerable. But i'll repeat myself, I've nvr wanted anything like this to EVER happen. And then u made me look bad. Wat do u think i am? Some emotionless psychopath who only wants to toy your heart and fondly us both to be burnt down into debris. Is that it? (U have got to be kidding me.)
But thankfully Boxing Day was a blessing in disguise. It was unconditionally wonderful. Wasn't a washout for me ;)
To me, the best donuts in the country.
My bestfriend's physically and mentally gorgeous, in all ways.
Say, u and me we're good now?
ps:give it a try at the new Jusco at bukit indah, sans the old one at Tebrau City.cool shit.
And the kite says it's way too fly for the wind.
Date / Time : Monday, December 22, 2008 / 4:06 PM
Oh boy desmond, you really do noe how to shack up a good time. Hats off to you, u're really my social butterfly.
I looked like one of the guys from Wayne's World, agree? Haha.
I almost kill him with this one.
I feel pretty funny this afternoon. Perhaps could be from the huge breakfast that somehow can supply for a family of four. There are times when my appetite can go beyond control and i can eat like a cow. Sweeet Jeeeezz. And when you have a big plate of western feast in the morning, only a fool can resist that much luxury. Ahhhhhh.. No wonder, i'm freaking thick and ugly nowadays. IIII FEEELLL FAAAATTT and i can't blame anyone!
I'm finally functional coz i've started to make plans. To ensure that this vacation is no fruitless. I noe it's a bit too late, and arrangements shld be make like a week ago but hey, i got my senses late. And i'll make sure X'mas will be ANYTHING but ordinary, tho i'm not celebrating. I treat it like my own holiday. But still do always love the trees, mistletoes, snow, candy canes and the family films anyhow. Ahh, i might surprise myself with a gift (surprise is surprise, shldn't have said it out loud, oops).
I swear i've got no intention to give you a dress-down like tat. I truly understand how you feel and its no point typing it all out like tat coz somehow u wldn't have listened anyway. Cos in reality, we've been somehow distant, we're not even in the same breed in the first place, and i realised now that im not much that important for u to look up to. But i just did it anyway, didn't i? I felt really sick and all-weepy when everytime u did something like dat to your parents. I love your parents, family and even you nonetheless. And what you didn't realise was when you did that kind of things to them, they feel like they've somehow lose you. And when they thought, they can put a mountain of hopes on you, you crashed it all down like nothing ever matters. So more heart-wretching was, when i witnessed your mom nagged non-stop. Not because in a tone of she's really angry, but for the sake that she's sad, disappointed and she needs sympathy because she can't gets it from u. Please, get back to your senses before it's too late. I'm saying all this because there is still care left in me and i'll always call you my baby brother who i thought i've never dream of having.
I hope humans (including myself) will get themselves a prettier personality. And change is not necessarily that adverse as we all thought afterall.
Human rebellion.
Date / Time : Sunday, December 21, 2008 / 6:17 PM
Finally all the moolahs can be well-kept, cuz surprise, surprise i'm not so high on the sugar content (hard icing cupcakes (yuck!), milk chocolates, B&j, etc...) anymore. & i just wanna rot at home; is tat so much to ask?
Even if one day i were to be buck-naked on the floor, being scarily lonely, no worries; i still won't count on you. 'Had an amusingly fun, hang-loose day at the Zoo with the godparents on Saturday,The Sunnyday. but still the weekends were not much of a storyline without you in it.
The young and the goner.
Date / Time : Wednesday, December 17, 2008 / 11:49 AM
"Perhaps there is only one cardinal sin: impatience. Because of impatience we were driven out of Paradise, because of impatience we cannot return." -W. H. Auden.
Rather eager to update for these few days. Covering up for the days that I had really missed. In case you would ask, i do love to pour everything out of my system and letting you read me like a book. Vulnerable as you can tell, i'm like any other girls who (owns a diary) and needing some kindest soul who'll appreciate my every thoughts being told. It may be too much for you to take; but it may be a talent for me to speak candidly right from my mind. I dun wanna cause any ruckus but for whatever outcomes there may be, i'm just glad you're there, listening. & that's y, we have a blog dun we?
For obvious reasons, I may call myself a movie-addict. I guess i'm too overdosed of watching too much movies. I'm rather familiarized with the whole society-phenomena thingy happening arnd the world right now. Recently overnight, Kate Winslet has become my fave performer. She seemed to have beautifully brought up all her characters to life, perhaps that's why her fans are so captivated by her flair, besides her stunning good looks alone. She played a dull housewife with a rather pervertic husband in Little Children the best. Omg, what a darling!
And baby, you said you'll change, but i still hear no sound.Everyone is fucking thrilled to see your ever-impending transformation, new hair, new image, new you. Can you speed up the whole process or shld i call upon Peter Perfect? Why is it so hard for guys to switch themselves to a whole new them? Why are they so delicate to changes? For us, we call upon a makeover anyday, anytime, right girls? But everyone is ever behind you. Cause frankly, its an eye sore for me to see you like this. & yes, yes a pity cause you're born with the perfect nose, snowy white skin and cherry, red lips. Aiya!
& i need some revampings on my own too. Seriously, working on it.
PS: anyway, i hope i dun bored you to tears. I know i can sound worse than a grandmother. :)
Empty lake, empty streets; The sun goes down alone.
Date / Time : Monday, December 15, 2008 / 9:23 PM
We are the boys and girls of Summer '08. Even the season's changing, time to roll up our sleeves and gear up for new resolutions and future endeavours. Soon, '09 is waiting, let's get jiggy with it!
howdy f8!
Unfortunately, understand some bonds here were not destined to be in the cards for long.
Well, at least there’s a memoir that we all know will always last forever, no?
Remember our group name?
The ........ Gosh, hw cld i have forgotten?
Ditto, had tons of fun making history. Thick black eyeliners, boas, masks, slinky LBDs; damn right, we're like the overnight Beyonce and Paris. HAHAHAHA!
&& Booyah, have a superb holiday, hippies!
Return of Saturn with no qualms.
Date / Time : Sunday, December 14, 2008 / 11:52 AM
Everyone's in the festive mood; finally, the holidays are here to stay. Keep your fingers crossed, i'll be from the moon and back. It had been too long.
Reach out to me, we'll walked thru this arctic christmas together.
& let's storm the cinemas for the highly-antipated, Bedtime Stories, folks ;)
What if tomorrow was just another tomorrow.
Date / Time : Wednesday, December 3, 2008 / 8:54 PM
Shut my eyes & dream everything is still floating.
Can't cycle ever be broken? Do anything comes to mind when everytime we watched movies? The twists and turns are actually the counterparts tat make up the whole fairy-tale, like hello! Not so much on the miracles' part. (Ring any bell?) Fuck this, fuck this sick, sad little agony. Evrything is just too much expected. Too arranged. I seek for some high-drama; so someone or anyone, please break a leg/bone/neck or something. Or much better yet, sprinkle dollars notes all over town.
I'm ever so thought-less a.k.a brain-dead when writing RJs. Gawd! This is so frustrating, when working on a school work with yourself knowing that your eyes are completely blurring out on you, simply hopeless. & your mind's already diverting to the bliss of your big, fat comfy bed. Usually, just a simple language and some scabby 'scams' will do the trick. Ahhhhhh, endurance is getting old.
Guess it takes such a looooooooooong height before eventually calling it a night, eh.
Once jaded, forever jaded.
Kiss me at the doorway.
Gees, i used to miss every single moment.
But what seemed to really excite me then, is becoming too stale for me now.
